too often, everything has led down to this:
"i should have never texted you that one day that led to another and another and it soon became a daily thing,
morning and night, texting you, talking to you, and praying you would respond as fast as i would.
i should have never gotten my hopes up as high as i did when i thought you liked me.
i should have never continued to talk to you when i thought you didn't.
i should have never trusted myself and trusted you with my heart because then maybe, it wouldn't hurt this bad"
- it'll always hurt. a secret i'll take to my grave