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QuOtEs aBoUt LiFe

(more later okay)

 

In a world of comparison & conformity, make your own statement.
Honor your own truth. Have the courage to be yourself ;
risk speaking your own thoughts & claiming your emotions.
Share your vulnerabilities, tears, doubts, & insecurities ;
let others experience the real you. Have the courage to be yourself
& realize that you are a wonderful person

 

One day we are all going to fall in love.
We are going to find a guy that makes
us weak in the knees & gives us butterflies
in our stomachs. Who loves us for our imperfections
& little things that make us unique & wouldn't
trade us
for the world. One day we will get
over high school drama. We will realize
 the important things in life are
our friends & family & that the two go hand
in hand
. We will realize how amazing everyone
 is & how we could never live without
them. One day we will grow up.
We will have responsibilities, children,
mortgages, car payments, & jobs. We will carry
baggage
; not only briefcases but emotional as
well. But until then lets live life to its fullest,
be kids, make mistakes, laugh too long &*too often,
( make out too long & too often ),
enjoy friends & just live fabulously

 

It's funny how hello, is always accompanied, with goodbye.
It's funny how, good memories, can start to make you cry.
It's funny how, Forever, never seems to last.
It's funny how, much you'd lose if you, forgot about you past.
It's funny how, friends can just leave you, when you're down.
It's funny how, when you need someone, they're never around.
It's funny how, people change and think, they're so much better.
It's funny how, how many lies can be packed, into one "love letter".
It funny how, people forgive even though, They can't forget.
It's funny how, one night can contain, so much regret

 

- x » let's face it; we've changed. we've all
changed. somewhere between school ending
& school starting, we've all gone in our own
directions. hearts were broken; friendships *
diminished, new loves started, & new people
came into our lives. we no longer spend all of
our time
together in our circle of friends, & we
no longer talk for hours about nothing at all.
we`ve changed. some for the better, and some
for the worse.

 

You have to be very selective when it comes to who you can && cannot trust.And when you do come to the conclusion on trusting, the people you trust the most are always the ones that screw you over...You just have to go after what you want
and if it doesn't want you back then so be it,
it doesn't deserve you anyways...
- Nicole Richie

 

Life is too short to wake up in the morning
with regrets. So love the people who treat
you right, forget about the ones who don't
and believe that everything happens for a
reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it
changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd
be easy, they just promised it would be worth it

 

Anger and resentment can stop you in your tracks. That's what I know now. It needs nothing to burn but the air & the life that it swallows and smothers. It's real, though - the fury, even when it isn't. It can change you... turn you... mold you and shape you into something you're not. The only upside to anger, then... is the person you become. Hopefully someone that wakes up one day and realizes they're not afraid to take the journey, someone that knows that the truth is, at best, a partially told story. That anger, like growth, comes in spurts & fits, and in its wake, leaves a new chance at acceptance, and the promise of calm. Then again, what do I know? I'm only a child.
THE UPSiDE OF ANGER <3

 

Top Twenty Things Girls Like About Guys:
1) The way they try to act so tough.
2) How they write girls letters.
3) The way they smell.
4) How we feel so safe in their arms.
5) When they aren't afraid to admit things.
6) The way they say,"I love you."
7) The way they go shopping with you.
8) When they call you to make you feel better.
9) When they bring you something when your feeling down.
10) How they always seem to want to love you
11. they look so cute when they try to show off
12. they always ask where YOU want to go on the first date.
13. they look fine even if they just got out of bed
14. they never ask:"does this make me look fat?"
15. when they come to school, they always go to you first and give u a kiss.
16. they always ask if you need a ride
17. they try not to be perverted when they're around you
18. they always say "of course not" when u ask them if it makes you look fat.
19. when you dont feel good, they kiss you on your head.
20. they're just so damn cute!!

 

this is for you, my best friend, the one person I can tell my soul to.

Who can relate to me like no other. Who I can laugh with to no extent,

who I can cry to when times are tough, who can help me with the problems of my life.

Never have you turned your back on me or told me I wasn't good enough or let me down.

I don't think you know what that means to me. You have gone through so much pain & you still have time for me. & I love you for listening even when inside you are dying. & I look up to you because you are strong, & caring & beautiful. Even though you don't think you are. & I hope you know that I'm always here to listen to you laugh & cry & help in all the ways that I can. & I will try to be at least half the friend you are to me. I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, without you. My best friend.

 

boys will break ur heart, friends will -betray- you,
parents will seem too strict, and life might [annoy] you.
but you should always remember that theres a purpose
for these things to be happening to us
so keep ur head up and ur spirits |high|
because if you don't...life will just p a s s you by

 

the problem with guys is - they make you
believe they love you;; when they d.o.n.t
the problem with girls is - they make you
believe they dont love you;; when they do.

 

 

Sometimes me ask "what is [friend]?"
And then me say"[friend] is what the last chocolate cookie is for."
--Cookie Monster

 

TRAGEDiES HAPPEN. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO, GiVE UP? NO. QUiT? NO. i REALiZE NOW THAT WHEN YOUR HEART BREAKS YOU'VE GOTTA FiGHT LiKE HELL TO MAKE SURE YOU'RE STiLL ALiVE. CAUSE YOU ARE AND THAT PAiN YOU FEEL, iT'S LiFE. THE CONFUSiON AND FEAR, THAT'S HERE TO REMiN YOU THAT SOMEWHERE OUT THERE SOMETHiNG iS BETTER AND THAT SOMETHiNG iS WORTH FiGHTiNG FOR

 

I never knew why it was called "falling in love",
but i do now. You become in love
with someone and everything
is so great. It cant get any better.
You feel like nothing can mess
up because its so perfect.
Once it cant get any better, you suddenly
realize you no longer are climbing a mountain,
you walk off the edge, begin to "fall"
and realize nothing is perfect. Y
ou begin to fall straight down to reality.
You stop getting their calls,
they dont talk to you in the halls,
you stop having notes passed to you in class,
they dont brag about you to their friends,
the compliments stop,
they lose that sparkle in their eye,
and all the sweet surprises are gone.
As you fall you watch all the memories,
good times, bad times, smiles, laughs, cries just
pass you by. its gone, all gone.
Youre back at the bottom of the mountain
and this time your all alone.
Somehow your trying to find the strength
to climb that mountain knowing you could fall.
You will have to find a new "guide" and hope
they will help you know the best paths to take.
They will help you overcome obstacles.
They will be the one that shelters you
when the rain starts falling.
Once they help you reach the top,
you pray they wont leave you. Not many "guides"
will stay on the mountain forever, so be careful.
Alone on a mountain you will fall and keep falling.
If someone is there with you as you stumble,
they will catch you before you fall.
So before you "fall in love", understand
that falling can be very painful.
The person you hope will catch you
could be the one that pushed you down...

 

What is love? When we claim that it's love that we have for someone, are we correct? Something to ponder upon.. are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? IT iSNT L0VE, iT'S LiKE * you can't keep your eyes or hands off of them,am i right? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S LUST* are you proud, and eager to show them off? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S PRiDE * are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S L0W C0NFiDENCE* do you stay for their confessions of love because you don't want to hurt them? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S PiTY.do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? iT iSN'T L0VE iT'S INFATUATi0N* do you pardon their faults because you care about them? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S FRiENDSHiP* do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S A LiE* are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S CHARiTY* does your heart ache and break when they're sad? THEN iTS L0VE. do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong? THEN iT'S L0VE. do you see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? THEN iT'S L0VE.. do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain adrelation pulls you close and holds you there? THEN iT'S L0VE. do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are? THEN iT'S L0VE would you give them your heart, your life, your death? THEN iT'S L0VE. now if this is painful tortues us so, why so we love? why is it all we search for in life? this pain this agony? why is it
all we long for? this torture this powerful death of self? why? the answer is so simple cause iT'S L0VE. it is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with someone.

 

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mind games, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it......So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congradulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

 

Sometimes we just don’t appreciate those people who really care for us until they leave us, until we lose them, then we regret. Outer beauty doesn’t matter; it’s the inside that counts. It's better to tell someone how much you love them rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them. You'll regret it.

 

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be that they are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times.. This is homage to the girls who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning. This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend. This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after falling to sleep. This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisfied with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

 

You go out with someone .. because you
like them .. Then as you get to know them
more you start to love them & get to know
more about them & get to see their sweet
side. Well .. in a relationship - theres always
gonna be ONE person who tries to break you
up. Because they're jealous or because they're
mad at the world. Everyone says, "omg they're
soo sweet together." & Those homewreckers
say to themselves - "They're not gonna be soo
sweet together afterall."
- Gotta love home wreckers.

 

Friends are the people your reminded of when you see something they might
like & you know this cus you know them so well. They are the people whose
pictures you have & whose faces are in your head regardless. They are the people
you see in your mind when you hear a song on the radio cus they made you
go up to the person they like & ask them to dance with them, or maybe you
danced with them, maybe they stepped on your toes, or just put their head on
your shoulder. They are the people you feel safe around cus you know they care
about you. They call just to see how your doing, cus a friend doesn't need an excuse

 

Take a look behind the make-up and behind the fake smiles,because only then will you see. Look past the outward appearances and into my heart and you will see the real me. Look past the bruises and the scars...and all the things I do.And forget all the things you thought you once you knew. Don't remind me of my mistakes and of my fallen tears, don't tell me about the things I lost throughout all these years. Take a look inside..take a look and then you will realize...I'm not the girl you think I am, all I hope is that you really give a damn...Take me away from here, take me away so I can tell you my true fears...I'll tell you about the thoughts in my head, and how I no longer feel dead...Take me away and never bring me back...Please ignore all the qualities,to you,I seem to lack. Forget all the bitterness and all the rage, must I remind you that you let me out of this so-called cage. Try to look past all my insecurities and all my lies, please look away from these unworthy eyes. Please leave your comfort zone, for you I'll let the real truth be known. Thinking of my future without youleaves me breathless, I get too scared to even speak. So let's leave the problems all behind...let our future as friends unwind ...but take me away today, bring me back on a better day.

 

 

At this very minute, someone…
is thinking of you.. & smiling
cares about you.
misses you
wants to hold your hand.
wants you to be happy.
wants to hug you.

is wishing you would notice them.
wants to get to know you better.

wants to be your lover.

wants to be with you.
wants you to know they are there for you.

values your advice

wants to hear your voice

hears a song that reminds them of you
is glad that you're their friend.
will do anything for you.

thinks the world of you
needs to know your love is unconditional.
wants to tell you how much they care.
wants to stay up watching movies w/ you.
wants to hold you in their arms.
can’t wait to see you.

has faith in you

trusts you
loves you for who you are.
loves the way you make them feel.

and.. loves you <3

 

Do you ever sit && think ; what if?what if you had never said the first hello..or What if your pathes never crossed?What if you kept your mouth shut & just let things pass...What if you had just five more minutes...What if you could turn back time & make it all stand still.Where would your life be? Better?? Worse?? Less Confused?? More Confused?? Happier, or Sadder..? Just What If...

 

1,377 teenage girls become mothers
1,106 teenage girls get an abortion
500 adolescents begin to use drugs
4,219 teenagers get a sexually transmitted disease 1,000 adolescents being drinking alcohol
3,610 teenagers are assulted.. 80 are raped 2,861 teenagers drop out of school 420 children are arrested for drug use 5,388 youth are arrested 6 teenagers commit suicide.. EVERY DAY!

 

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity, all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. Make every day count. Appreciate every moment, and take from it, everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone, tell them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.

 

so you wanna be perfect? -well let me tell you
something about perfection. perfect people always
smile. perfect people dont step in dog doo. perfect
people never have their cars brake down. perfect
people find a perfect husband or wife and live happily
in perfection. they never get stains on their clothing.
they have never done anything embarrassing. they
have perfect grades and perfect friends and perfect
jobs. they end up in perfect houses surrounded by
perfect white picket fences. perfect people dont make
mistakes. perfect people never learn from pain and
cry. perfect people dont take the risks that are worth
taking. perfect people never experience the feelings
you have when you're in love, when you've been scraped,
when you've been heartbroken. well, it sounds like
the perfect life is the worst because perfect people never lived

 

there`s gonna be times in life where you just keep falling.
don`t waste your energy trying to climb back up.
chances are you won`t get very far before you fall down again, so just make the best out of it and build a castle right where you are.

 

So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do the things you used to be against, you date the people you thought you never would, and you befriend the people you used to hate. You'll learn what it's like to have your heart broken, to lose a friend that truly meant something to you, and to feel as if everything is really falling apart. There will be times that your life seems so absolutely horrible it feels like it's not real. Despite all this, good things will come too. You'll make the most amazing friends that will be there for you even when they probably shouldn't. Your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you've ever met, and just as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. There will be the days you are so happy, and the days that you feel like dying. Drama happens, gossip goes around, and people talk shit. Maybe this is just highschool, maybe it's life, or maybe this is just what growing up is.

 

i've learned that things change `
and people change . it doesn't ;;
mean you forget the past or try,
to cover it up ? it simply means `
that you've moved on & treasure
the memories, letting go doesn't
mean giving up it just means ` '
( accepting ) that some things .
just aren't meant to be

 

what do you do when nothing seems right and everythings a mess, do you just sit there and cry or do you try to do something about it? some say cryings good for you, it's not really all that easy you see, because sometimes nobody understands you, and sometimes you can barely understand yourself. i miss being little, where everything was easy, everything just seemed right, when boys had cooties, your clothes didn't have to match, the greatest guy in the world was your dad, when santa was still real, and when your parents used to tuck you in at night. i remember that, but most of all, the one thing i remember the most, is wanting to grow up. wanting to be older, and have boyfriend, have cell phones, go out on the weekends by yourself. i remember wanting to just be older, but now that i am older, i just want to be young again. cause growing up is hard, don't let anyone try to tell you it's easy, cause it's not it's hard, really hard, but you just have to take every step with caution, and hope, just hope that every thing turns out right.. listen to your heart it will tell you what to do..

 

once you get everything straightened out and you begin to enjoy life .. something happens . it happens because there has to be some kind of event that hits you in the face and makes you realize it's not all gonna come easy . you have to work at love and dry your tears . friends will come and go ; and guess what ? there will be others . not every relationship will be enchanting and perfect , and if it's meant to be, it will always find a way.

 

if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. and when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. because the best things in life, they don't come free.
- Dawsons Creek

 

You don’t know how long you’ll get to keep things, and how long you get to live. But as long as you know you’ve got something in your life you love and cherish with everything you’ve got, make the best of it; because one day, when you least expect it, you could lose the most important thing in your life you set your whole future for. Take care of things while they’re still small, and most of all, take care of the people you love. Because one day, it just might be too late to care of anything, or even see them smile again.

 

When you don't make the cut, think of how lucky you were to be able to try; there are kids in parts of the world who are worrying about what they will eat for dinner let alone making a team. When you don't get the new shoes you want, think of how blessed you are to have feet to put shoes on; there are people all over the world who would give anything to be able to walk again. When your parents won't let you go out to a party, think of how lucky you are to have parents who care; there are kids all over the world who would give anything to have their parents love them or to have parents at all. When you think life can't get any worse for you, think of the poor, the hungry, the homeless, the lonely, the widowers, the military and army at war (and all people fighting and dying for our country), the parents of missing children and the families going through Christmas for the first year without a loved one; just remember how blessed you are to still be here. So try to make someone's day a little better with a kind hi or hello. You never know what anyone else is going through, and sometimes it might just make you thankful for what you have.

 

 

FACTS OF LiFE :
1
. at least 5 people in this world love you so much
that they`d die for you.
2. at least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
4. you mean the world to someone.
5. someone that you don`t even know exists; likes you.
6. a smile from you can bring happiness to anyone..
even if they don`t like you

 

Someone will always be prettier. They will always be

smarter. Their house will be bigger. They will drive a better

car. Their children will do better in school.. and their

husband will fix more things around the house. So let it go

.. and love you and your circumstances. Think about it. The prettiest women in the world can have turmoil in her heart. And the most highly favored women on your job may be

unable to have children. And the richest women you know, she’s got the car, the house, the clothes .. might be lonely. And the world says .. if have not Love, I am nothing. So, again .. love you. Love who you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say * I am too blessed to be

stressed and too anointed to be disappointed !

 

 

I’ve learned that things change `

and people change . it doesn't ;;

mean you forget the past or try,

to cover it up ? it simply means `

that you've moved on & treasure

the memories, letting go doesn't

mean giving up it just means ` '

( accepting ) that some things .

just aren't meant to be

 

life isn`t about keeping score. it`s not about how many friends youu have

or how accepted youu are. not about if youu have plans this weekend, or if youu`re going

to be alone. it isn`t about who youu`re dating, who you’ve dated, or if you haven`t been with

anyone at all. it isn`t about who you`ve kissed, it`s not about sex. it isn`t about who your

family is or how much money they have. or what kind of car youu drive. or where youu are sent

to school. it`s  not about how beautiful or ugly you are. or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on, or what kind of music you listen to. it's not about if your hair is blonde, red, black, or brown. or if  you`re skin is too light or too dark. not about what grades you get, how smart you are, how smart everybody thinks you are, or how smart standardized tests say youu are. it's not about  what clubs you`rein or how good you`re at "you`re" sport. it`s not about representing your whole being on a piece of paper and seeing who will accept the"written you ". LiFE JUST iSN'T . but, life is about who you loveand who you hurt. it's about who you make happy or unhappy purposefully. it's about keeping or betraying trust. it's about friendship, it's about what you say and mean, maybe hurtful, maybe heartening. about starting rumors and contributing to petty gossip.it's about what judgements

you pass and why. and who your judgements are spread to it's about who you've ignored with full

control and intention. it's about jealousy ,fear ,ignorance , and revenge . it's about carrying innner hate and love, letting it grow, and spreading it. but most of all, it`s about using your life to touch or poison other people's hearts in such a way that could never occur alone. only youu choose the way those hearts are affected, and those choices are what life is about

 

One hundred years from now, it wont matter how you did on a test, or how popular you were. no one will care about how many shots you got in a basketball game. it wont matter if you miss a day of school, or what you got for your birthday. your highest score on a computer game wont be remembered or if your family had a swimming pool. no one will care who came in first in that one race. it wont matter if your handwriting was messy, or if all your artwork wasnt the best. but, if you made life a little better, for just one person, thats what will be remembered. thats what will matter..

 

sometimes you just gotta run away  *  so you can see who will
run after you.sometimes you gotta talk quieter just to see whos
listening sometimes you gotta step up in a fight   but only to see
who's  standing  by  your side n   Sometimes  you gotta make a
wrong 
decision  only  to see  who's there to help you fix it and
sometimes.   you gotta let go  of  the  one you love just to see if
They   love   you   enough   to   come    back    to    you.

 

So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do the things you used to be against, you date the people you thought you never would, and you befriend the people you used to hate. You'll learn what it's like to have your heart broken, to lose a friend that truly meant something to you, and to feel as if everything is really falling apart. There will be times that your life seems so absolutely horrible it feels like it's not real. Despite all this, good things will come too. You'll make the most amazing friends that will be there for you even when they probably shouldn't. Your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you've ever met, and just as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. There will be the days you are so happy, and the days that you feel like dying. Drama happens, gossip goes around, and people talk shit. Maybe this is just highschool, maybe it's life, or maybe this is just what growing up is.

 

I’ve learned that things change `

and people change . it doesn't ;;

mean you forget the past or try,

to cover it up ? it simply means `

that you've moved on & treasure

the memories, letting go doesn't

mean giving up it just means ` '

( accepting ) that some things .

just aren't meant to be

 

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity, all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. Make every day count. Appreciate every moment, and take from it, everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone, tell them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live

 

sometimes life is so perfect ;; isn`t it? it has to be; to make up for all the hard stuff it throws in your way. you have to learn to walk. you have to learn to talk. you have to wear that totally ridiculous hat your grandma bought youu. you have no say in the matter. && when you`re a little older, even though you get to choose your hats, you don`t get to choose what they put in those meatballs in the cafeteria or when to fall in love. things happen, and you just have to deal with it.
-- how to deal --

 

In life we come across people who are shallow and lacking the substance that makes us have worth... these people usually operate by playing games and wasting the time of others.  Dont despair when you don't or can't connect with these types of people. Understand that they are not ready for a person like you .....they are not ready  for the gifts of friendship that you have to offer.  Remember that they are the ones that are losing out....no matter what just strive to continue your own personal strive towards "essence".

 

** Life is like a like a piece of paper. But it's not about the paper...it's about the color on it. When you are born the colors on your paper are beautiful colors. Colors that are hopeful and pure like white and yellow. But as life goes on you might have fights and not very good moments. That is when your piece of paper turns red, black, and gray. Sometimes something tragic happens. Something painful and not good at all. You think your world is crumbling and you can't get through. Your paper starts to turn a dark unforgiving blue. That is when Jesus takes your brush and starts to paint wonderful colors. Green,yellow,white,purple. He's the one that always brings you out of the dark and makes your life better. Always.

 


 

THiNGS THAT MAKE LiFE WORTH LiViNG:
Falling in love. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. Milkshakes. Bubble baths. Giggling. Long convo’s late at night. The beach. Running through sprinklers. Laughing at an inside joke. Laughing at yourself. Laughing so hard your stomach hurts. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. Just plain laughing. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. Friends. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. First kisses. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. Playing with a new puppy. Sweet dreams. Hot chocolate. Road trips with friends. Making chocolate chip cookies. Holding hands with someone you care about. Watching the sunrise. Watching a sunset. Getting out of bed in the morning after sleeping in and looking out the window to see its sunny, birds are chirping, and kids are playing. Knowing that somebody misses you. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.Being in the arms of the one you love. Getting all pretty. Walking in the rain. Dancing in the rain. Kissing in the rain. The rain. Receiving roses. The first snow of the winter. Eating ice-cream and crying to a chick-flick. Going to the movies. Making a fool of yourself and not caring because you’re having too much fun. Fridays. Saying I love you. Hearing I love you. Cuddling. Pictures that remind you of good memories. Good memories that you think back to and start to smile

 

I'm watching the wind, and it's funny because you can never actually see it. You only experience its aftereffects. Wind makes the leaves shake, and trees sway, and occasionally it knocks things over. I guess the same goes with love. You can't see it, but you sure can feel it, and you pray to god that it doesn't knock you on your ass. You get the aftereffects too, whether you want them or not. You're changed, sometimes for worse and other times for better. But in the end love makes you stronger. It wakes you up to life and makes you feel. It makes you human.

 

We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, & even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.     - GREY'S ANATOMY *

 

somewhere between the procrastination the homework the friendships
&& the nasty cafeteria food the calls to old friends the 'i miss yous' && the 'i love yous'
&& the 'what are we doing tonights' somewhere between all of the changing && growing
&& the skipping classes the studying for tests  && the pretending to
be studying for tests && the downright not studying for tests i forgot i forgot what it meant to cry i forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy  i forgot that pretending

to be smart doesnt make you smart && that pretending to be ok doesnt make you ok
i forgot that you cant just forget the past  in fear of the future && i forgot that you cant
control falling in love  && that you cant make yourself fall in love  i learned
i learned that i can love i learned that its ok to mess up && that its ok to ask for help
&& that its ok to feel like crap i learned its okay to complain && whine to all of your
friends for a whole day that somehow theyll make it all better i learned that sometimes the
things you want most you just cant have i learned the greatest thing about high school isnt gonna be who is the most popular or going to the most parties or the drinking not even the hook-ups its the friendships which means taking chances i learned that sometimes the things we forgive && forget are the things we need to talk out i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing && that sending cards to your friends make you feel better but basically i learned that my friends both old and new are the most important people to me in the world

 

I have been beating my brains in trying to impress you people. Listen Gibby, Kirstin, Krysten, you will spend your whole lives trying to keep others down because it makes you feel more important, but why her? Let me tell you about this girl she is amazing. I was new here and she befriended me no questions asked. But you, you were only my friends after my brother, Rob , told you to like me. There is a great big world out there and it won't matter if you were the most popular girl, the quarterback of the football team, or the biggest nerd in school. Find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it.—Never Been Kissed

 

QuOTEs AbOUt LoVE

(more later..)

 

Can someone tell me that you got loved figured out.

Well I got news from you, because it's pretty darn messy right now.

But I guess it's always been that way. Wanting to be loved.

To find someone that makes your heart ache in a good way.

To feel understood. So if you're a robot or an alien and your watching this right now

and feel like that no longer exists, well, you missed it. And I feel sorry for you.

Because as far as I can tell that's what it's all about. And that's what it always should be about

--one tree hill

 

Right now, things couldn't get any better between me & you.
You said it yourself, I'm the perfect girl for you,
never
going to hurt you. Why? Cause I'm the girl who's always getting hurt.
It's almost like it's my job. So please,
if your going to take my heart like all the other boys, don't be the one to break it.
Keep it with you & cherish it. Cause I cherish every moment I'm with you. 
I want to thank you for making me feel like the center of the universe.
Whenever we're together, no matter if theres 20 people or 5 people there,
your attention is always towards me. I wanna say thank you for making me feel loved

 

I want a guy..that one that will come up and give me a big, sweaty hug after the game just to see me squirm. One that will have pictures of me all over his room, and will point his favorite ones out to me everytime I walk in. One that will lay on my bed with me, and ask me to tell him some random story. One that will lay outside with me on a chilly night, all wrapped up in blanket with me and watch the stars. One that will send me flowers at times I don't expect it at all. One that will call me up just to say hey, and will sing to me on the phone. One that will listen to me and hold me tight when I don't want to let go. One that will get in play fights with me, then tell me I'm right just to see me smile. One that will watch all the O.C. episodes with me. One that will watch The Notebook, and every other chick flick there is. One that will stop by my house just to give me a kiss. One that will stand outside my window throwing rocks at it, just to say 'I love you'. One that will go shopping with me and enjoy it. One that will write me little love notes to remind me how much he really loves me. One that will get caught in the rain with me. One that will be his self around me, and I can be myself around him. But most of all, one that will love me for me.

 

You might not be his first, his last, or his only. He's cared about someone else before and possibly will again, but if he cares for you now, what else matters? He's not perfect and you aren't either. and the two of you will never be perfect, but if he can make you laugh at least once, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He is probably not going to quote poetry, he might not be thinking about you every second of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break. So don't hurt him, don't change him and don't expect more than he can give. Don't over analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. <3

 

Cinderella walked on broken glass.
Sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass.
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast.
Pocahontas risked her life for a feast.
Jasmine could have had anyone...instead she chose a poor man.
Ariel walked on land all for love and for life.
It was all about blood, sweat & tears...
Love's all about facing your biggest fears

   

My friends tell me I'm
crazy for even liking you.
They say, it's just an infatuation,
and sooner or later, I'd move on
to a different person. But whether
it's infatuation or love, looking into
your eyes for the slightest second
keeps me wondering, what would
happen if you had feelings for me,
the same way I have
feelings for you?
&& because of that, I don't care
what my friends think. Because
to me, you're unforgettable, no
matter what the case.

 

Why do you keep them?
Under our bed, up in the attic, in the back of some
drawer. We could have thrown them out a thousand
times, and yet there they are...still. Old Love
Letters. Written to a person we no longer are, by a
hand we no longer hold. Sappy cards and faded
stationary, old and deeply wrinkled at the creases. Why
do we keep them? Maybe because they are the mile
markers of our journey, the currency of our soul and our
past. They give our lives a value nothing else can even
approach. They mark the time in our lives
when we knew we were loved

 

1. Tell her she is beautiful, not hott, fine or sexy.
2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it just for a second.
          3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
          5 . Always tell her you love her at any and all times.
6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
          7 . Recognize the small things . . . They usally mean the most.
8 . Call her sweety or  honey.
          9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
          11 . Write her notes. {she loves them}
12 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.
          13 . Play with her hair.
14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.
          15 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
16 . Tell her funny jokes.. tell her stupid jokes.. just tell her jokes.
          17 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.
18 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
          19 . Carve your names into a tree.
20 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
          21 . Give her piggyback rides.
22 . Bring her flowers just because.
           23 . Treate her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
24 . Look her in the eyes and smile
25. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants
26 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
           27 . Kiss her in the rain

little boy: "do you want to give me your heart?"
little girl: "well do you love me?"
little boy: " of course i love you "
little girl:"well how much do you love me? is it
an m&m's worth of love, and if it is then what
color m&m, i dont want to waste my heart on a
boy that only loves me as much as one of those
yucky yellow m&m's he hasta love me at least
a red or blue..green maybe brown at the least"
little boy: " i love you a thousand red m&m's

 

Girl: i like him.
Friend: you do, really?
Girl: yeah.
Friend: why?
Girl: are you serious? have you seen him SMiLE?
Friend: you should tell him. he likes you too.
Girl: he does?? how do you know??
Him: because i know your friend's password

 

I love being with you. I don't have to work hard to impress anyone..you know all my faults. I can cry in front of you, & you'll just hold me until I stop..or I can laugh so hard I cry..& you'll laugh with me until we're both crying. & it's perfect. How sometimes we don't have to say anything. Just being together is enough. Even though we know everything about each other, we still never run out of things to talk about. Your always there for me, either to hold me or laugh with me. you've been with me through everything & I can't imagine not having you in my life. I love having you in my life <3

 

 

when girls are quiet,
millions of things are running in thier mind.
when girls are not arguing,
they are thinking deeply.
when girls look 'staringly' at you,
they are wondering how long you`ll be around.
when girls answer `' im fine '` after a few seconds,
they are not at all fine.
when girls stare at you,
they are wondering whether you are lying or not.
when girls lay their head on your chest,
they are wishing for u to be theirs forever.
when girls call you everyday,
they want your attention.
when girls want to see you everyday,
they want to be loved and pampered by you.
when girls text you,
they miss you and want you to reply at least once.
when girls say `' i love you '`
they mean it.
when girls say they cant live without you,
they have made up their mind that you are their future.
and when girls say they miss you..
no one in the world can miss you more then they do

 

I never knew why it was called "falling in love",
but i do now. You become in love
with someone and everything
is so great. It cant get any better.
You feel like nothing can mess
up because its so perfect.
Once it cant get any better, you suddenly
realize you no longer are climbing a mountain,
you walk off the edge, begin to "fall"
and realize nothing is perfect. Y
ou begin to fall straight down to reality.
You stop getting their calls,
they dont talk to you in the halls,
you stop having notes passed to you in class,
they dont brag about you to their friends,
the compliments stop,
they lose that sparkle in their eye,
and all the sweet surprises are gone.
As you fall you watch all the memories,
good times, bad times, smiles, laughs, cries just
pass you by. its gone, all gone.
Youre back at the bottom of the mountain
and this time your all alone.
Somehow your trying to find the strength
to climb that mountain knowing you could fall.
You will have to find a new "guide" and hope
they will help you know the best paths to take.
They will help you overcome obstacles.
They will be the one that shelters you
when the rain starts falling.
Once they help you reach the top,
you pray they wont leave you. Not many "guides"
will stay on the mountain forever, so be careful.
Alone on a mountain you will fall and keep falling.
If someone is there with you as you stumble,
they will catch you before you fall.
So before you "fall in love", understand
that falling can be very painful.
The person you hope will catch you
could be the one that pushed you down...

 

every girl wants prince charming
and while he may be nice and all
i want a guy who will come up from behind
and put his arms around me, and hold me
he`ll whisper in my ear that he loves me.
a guy who`ll lay awake at night,
just thinking about me
a guy who`ll call at 3:00 am just to
tell me how much he misses me
he`d come over just after we
got off the phone
because he wants to know how i`m
really doing because i said i was fine
but we both know i was lying
he`d kiss me on my forehead
& tell me everything`s gonna be alright
he may not be prince charming to anyone else
but in my eyes, he`d fit the part perfectly

 

wait for the one guy who you can be yourself around. because that’s the only person he wants you to be. wait for the one who knocks you off your feet. the onewho thinks you’re the most amazing person in the world and nothing could be more important then you. wait for the one who calls you at 4:00 in the morning to tell you he was dreaming of you. the one you can run to in your pajamas, eyes red from crying, with no makeup on and he says ‘ baby you look beautiful ’ the one who can always tell whether to ask you what’s wrong or leave you alone. the one who will lay awake and listen to your steady heartbeat. you’ll know when you’ve found him because he will be the one worth sticking around for. he’s the one that will make your life worth living. he’s the once in a lifetime guy who will make you realize how amazing love can truly be.

 

i want someone who loves me more than he loves sports.
or atleast someone i can love more than i love my icecream
and chinese food. someone to become my new favorite and
not just my favorite person, but favorite feeling.. favorite - -
taste, favorite love .. favorite » e v e r y t h i n g ______ <3

 

What is love? When we claim that it's love that we have for someone, are we correct? Something to ponder upon.. are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? IT iSNT L0VE, iT'S LiKE * you can't keep your eyes or hands off of them,am i right? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S LUST* are you proud, and eager to show them off? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S PRiDE * are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S L0W C0NFiDENCE* do you stay for their confessions of love because you don't want to hurt them? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S PiTY.do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? iT iSN'T L0VE iT'S INFATUATi0N* do you pardon their faults because you care about them? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S FRiENDSHiP* do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S A LiE* are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S CHARiTY* does your heart ache and break when they're sad? THEN iTS L0VE. do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong? THEN iT'S L0VE. do you see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? THEN iT'S L0VE.. do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain adrelation pulls you close and holds you there? THEN iT'S L0VE. do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are? THEN iT'S L0VE would you give them your heart, your life, your death? THEN iT'S L0VE. now if this is painful tortues us so, why so we love? why is it all we search for in life? this pain this agony? why is it
all we long for? this torture this powerful death of self? why? the answer is so simple cause iT'S L0VE. it is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with someone.

 

i just want a boy that will hold me, stay up with me all night talking about nonsense, someone who loves me even though he recognizes my flaws. a boy that will kiss me in front of his friends, a matture boy who won't tell you you look bad or tell you the bad someone said about you, a boy who will say i love you everytime we are apart, and won't get tired of it.

 

here are days that i love you && days that i don't.
days i'd like to be friends && days that i won't.
days i'll pick up the phone && give you a call. days
i'm so sad i don't want to talk to you at all. days
i look back at all the things that we shared. days i
question myself if you really even care. theres so
many things i wish i could say, but i'm scared it will all
come out in the wrong way. no matter how much time
goes by, i'll always be by your side, 'cause i couldn't
stop
loving you. . .
even if i t r i e d.

 

First love, the love that clings to your heart forever, no matter how much pain it has caused, no matter how many tears have fallen, first love will never leave my soul.

 

I've been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and I still want you as much as I did the first time I layed eyes on you. Every time I see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. It's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing I don't know. I don't know how to fall out of love with you. I don't know how to let go and as I stand here looking at you, I wonder if there will ever be a day when I will get over your smile, when I will let go of the hugs you gave me that I continue to feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much I love you. But, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, I know I could never get over, let go, or forget you. When you care about someone as much as I /do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. I thought I'd handle it just fine and that I'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. But it isn't always that easy. Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. I knew that I'd miss you I just didn't know I'd miss you as much as I do. I want to share my tears with you. I want to share my love with you. I want to share my happiness with you. I want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. I want to share my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe just maybe forever, and that's what happened with me and you.

 

There's no other feeling better than being in love… knowing that you have a person so close to you that they know what you're going through and care about nothing else other than you… that they’ll always be there whenever you need them despite any consequences. They’ll always care and support you in whatever you choose. They only want what's best for you and on top of all that they love you for whom you are, for being yourself, and not seeing a single flaw because in their eyes you're absolutely perfect. There's nothing better than risking everything just for that feeling.

 

 

At this very minute, someone…
is thinking of you.. & smiling
cares about you.
misses you
wants to hold your hand.
wants you to be happy.
wants to hug you.

is wishing you would notice them.
wants to get to know you better.

wants to be your lover.

wants to be with you.
wants you to know they are there for you.

values your advice

wants to hear your voice

hears a song that reminds them of you
is glad that you're their friend.
will do anything for you.

thinks the world of you
needs to know your love is unconditional.
wants to tell you how much they care.
wants to stay up watching movies w/ you.
wants to hold you in their arms.
can’t wait to see you.

has faith in you

trusts you
loves you for who you are.
loves the way you make them feel.

and.. loves you <3

 

Love isn't always perfect. It isn't a fairytale or a storybook. And it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on & never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, & impossible to live without. Love is work, but most of all, Love is realizing that every hour, every minute, & every second was worth it because you did it together.

 

Love isn't just a word. It's when you feel safe & comfortable around that "special someone". It's when even if you only talk to them long enough to say "hi" but afterwards go hours, even days ;; still smiling, remebering their voice inside your mind. It's when you see past all their flaws, & see them perfectly. When you see inside their heart & their soul through their eyes. When no matter how many flaws they may have, you still love them, for who they are on the inside, & that's where the beauty lies. It's when your whole body seems to smile when your with them, not just your face. It's the way your eyes light up when you hear their name. when you get the "feel good chills" from their touch, & you never wanna leave their presence. To sum it all up, love is the feeling I get whenever I'm with you

 

Nothing you love is lost. Not really.
Things, people ; they always go away sooner or later.
You can't hold them anymore than you can hold moonlight.
But if they've touched you, if they're inside you,
then they're still yours. The only things you can really have
are the ones you hold inside your heart

 

-» wait for the boy who will be your best friend, the boy
who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of
the day no matter what the circumstances, wait for the
boy who makes you smile like no other makes you smile
& when he smiles you know he needs you. wait for the
boy who wants to show you off to the world when
you are in sweats and have no make-up on. most of all,
wait for the boy who puts you at the center of his
universe because obviously he'll be at the center of yours

 

I never knew why it was called "falling in love", but i do now. You become in love with someone and everything is so great. It cant get any better. You feel like nothing can mess up because its so perfect. Once it cant get any better, you suddenly realize you no longer are climbing a mountain, you walk off the edge, begin to "fall" and realize nothing is perfect. You begin to fall straight down to reality. You stop getting their calls, they dont talk to you in the halls, you stop having notes passed to you in class, they dont brag about you to their friends, the compliments stop, they lose that sparkle in their eye, and all the sweet surprises are gone. As you fall you watch all the memories, good times, bad times, smiles, laughs, cries just pass you by. its gone, all gone.  You're back at the bottom of the mountain and this time you're all alone. Somehow you're trying to find the strength to climb that mountain knowing you could fall. You will have to find a new "guide" and hope they will help you knowthe best paths to take. They will help you overcome obstacles. They will be the one that shelters you when the rain starts falling.  Once they help you reach the top, you pray they wont leave you. Not many "guides" will stay on the mountain forever so be careful. Alone on a mountain you will fall and keep falling, If someone is there with you as you stumble, they will catch you before you fall. So before you "fall in love", understand that falling can be very painful. The person you hope will catch you could be the one that pushed you down.

 

What is love? When we claim that it's love that we have for someone, are we correct? Something to ponder upon.. are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? IT iSNT L0VE, iT'S LiKE * you can't keep your eyes or hands off of them,am i right? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S LUST* are you proud, and eager to show them off? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S PRiDE * are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S L0W C0NFiDENCE* do you stay for their confessions of love because you don't want to hurt them? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S PiTY.do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? iT iSN'T L0VE iT'S INFATUATi0N* do you pardon their faults because you care about them? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S FRiENDSHiP* do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S A LiE* are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake? iT iSN'T L0VE, iT'S CHARiTY* does your heart ache and break when they're sad? THEN iTS L0VE. do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong? THEN iT'S L0VE. do you see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? THEN iT'S L0VE.. do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain adrelation pulls you close and holds you there? THEN iT'S L0VE. do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are? THEN iT'S L0VE would you give them your heart, your life, your death? THEN iT'S L0VE. now if this is painful tortues us so, why so we love? why is it all we search for in life? this pain this agony? why is it  all we long for? this torture this powerful death of self? why? the answer is so simple cause iT'S L0VE. it is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with someone.

 

It's so hard to find a guy, a guy that knows how you feel, even when you havent told him anything. It's so hard to find a guy, a guy that treats you the way you've always wanted to be treated:::even though he doesn't know your last name yet. && it's so hard to keep some guy, 'some guy' that isn't interested anymore in what you have to give him. So once you find him, he's so easy to spot out, in a crowd of a million. But unfortunately..hes just one out of a million.

(Boy and Girl walking together)
Boy: How do you tell a girl out of nowhere you love her?
Girl: It's easy you just say it.
Boy: What if you are too scared you will lose her?
Girl: She couldn't possibly be scared of you- you are special.
Boy: Maybe I shouldnt tell her, I might ruin our friendship and if friendship is as close as I can be to being with her I will take it.  I wouldn't be able to live with myself without her in my life.
Girl: Sounds like you really do love her.  Any girl would be lucky to have a guy like you.  I wish someone out there felt like that about me.
Boy: Would you feel lucky?
Girl: What do you mean?
Boy: To have a guy like me?
Girl: Of course you are amazing.
Boy: Do you really mean that?
Girl: Of course I do- this girl would be the luckiest girl in the world to have you tell her that you love her.
Boy: So you would just say it.  Simple as that to her.
Girl: Yes- you should (her heart breaking knowing how she felt deep down for him)
Boy: Then ok close your eyes (girl closes eyes- boy places rose in her hand and tells her to open)  The girl you were talking about isn't the lucky one... I'm the lucky one because each morning I wake up and fall over and over in love again.  I'm the lucky one because each day I get to fall in love with you all over again.
 

Youu have so much power over me, youu'd be surprised if youu only knew … I wonder what youu'd say if youu knew that I woke up every morning with youu on my mind, showering thinking of you, getting dressed thinking of youu, listening to my music thinking of youu, putting on my make up for youu, fixing my hair for youu, wearing skirts for youu, lying out in the sun to be tan for youu, sitting in school thinking of youu, walking in the hallways looking for youu during and in between class, talking on the phone about youu, lying in bed at night thinking of youu, and falling asleep thinking of youu. If only youu knew how youu send my heart spinning every time youu look into my eyes and stare until we pass. If only youu knew how everything around me darkens, the voices all around me fade, all I hear is my heart pounding, and all I see are your beautiful eyes staring into mine. If only youu knew how much youu meant to me. I just wonder what youu'd say...

 

Love..Its not something you decide to feel, It not like..'oh he's cute, I'm gonna like him' Its just happens, one day you'll see him You've probably seen him many times before but for some reason this time is different, there's something there, something that you never realized before. You can't take your eyes off him, & you start to get this feeling in the pit of your stomach. It doesn't hurt but its like a sinking feeling & suddenly you feel like throwing up. But then again you'll like this feeling, cus the feeling you get once he leaves will be so much worse. It will be an indescribable pain, & you'll just feel empty inside. You'll begin to look for him where ever you go, start dreaming about him at night. Every love song that you here will make you think of him. Suddenly it will be harder to talk to him, & you won't understand why your words aren't coming out right. You'll start over analyzing everything you say to him, you'll think that every thing you say sounds stupid. But what ever he says to you will just be perfect. You see him differently then everyone else, the room will light up when ever he walks in, & everything is always better when he's there..You'll find him someday, & the feeling will be amazing..I just hope that it works out better for you than it did for me, I hope he finds you too...

 

i love being with you.. i don’t have to work hard
to impress anyone; you know all my faults.. i can cry in
front of you & you'll just hold me until i stop or i can
laugh so hard i cry & you'll laugh with me until we're
both crying & it's perfect how sometimes we don’t have
to say anything, just being together is enough.. even
though we know everything about each other we still
never run out of things to talk about. you're always there
for me whether to hold me or laugh with me you've been
with me through everything & i can’t imagine ever not
having you in my life. i love having you in my life.
forever is what i’ve always imagined myself sharing with you <3

 

You know you're in love when you can say anything to the person and you know they won't laugh at you. When you can see their face when you close your eyes. When you can still feel their arms around you holding you tight long after they are gone. When you can still taste their kiss after you have said good-bye. You can tell you're in love when you miss them before they are gone. When their voice lingers in your ears. When their presence eases any pain. When their name sends chills down your spine. When they are the only thing you can think about. You know you're in love when you can see all their hopes and dreams and their soul when you look into their eyes. When they call you at four in the morning and say, "I love you" and mean it. When your tears stain not only their shirt, but also their heart. When they are hurt just because of these tears. When even a simple chore done with them can become a lasting memory. Ultimately, you know you're in love when you can't imagine living without them and can't figure how you lived before you knew them. When they fulfill every need and with out them you are incomplete.

 

 

Cinderella walked on broken glass. Sleeping beauty let a whole lifetime pass. Belle fell in love with a hideous beast.
Pocahontas risked her life for a feast. Jasmine could have had anyone...instead she chose a poor man. Ariel walked on land all for love and for life. It was all about blood, sweat & tears...
Love's all about facing your biggest fears

 

There are at this moment 6,470,818,671  people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good. And some are good struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one..       
--One Tree Hill

 

dont look for the hottest guy...
or the most popular jock in the class...
look for the guy that makes you
feel like you're actually
w o r t h a s e c o n d g l a n c e
the one that makes you happy
to be the person you dont have
to try to be // or want to be
the guy who isnt like all the rest but
c o m p l e t l e y  d i f f e r e n t
yet it's why you like him... because h e i s n t l i k e

 a n y g u y y o u ' v e  eVeR kNoWn /He'S jUsT hIm <33

 

Because She Wants A Guy Who Will Just Come Over To Be With Her, Not "Get Some". Who Will Hold Her, And Keep Her Close, Because He's Afraid To Lose Her. Who Will Get The Hair Off Her Face, To See Her Eyes. Who Will Hug Her Tight. Kiss Her Cheek To Make Her Smile. Slow Dance With Her, Without The Music. Who Will Pick A Flower For Her And Put It In Her Hair. Who Will Watch Scary Movies With Her And Be Afraid With Her. Who Will Invite Her To His Family Partys. And Introduce Her To His Mom, As His Beautiful Girlfriend. A Guy Who Will Wave To Her In The Halls At School , And Make Sure She Sees It. Who Will Tell Her "Hes Missin Her" A Guy Who Will Leave Her Voice Mails Sayin Hes "Just Tellin Her He Loves Her" Who Will Be There For Her When She's In A Fight With Her Best Friend..To Comfort Her, And Let Her Cry On His Shoulder, A Guy Who Will Let Her Spray His Cologne All Over His Room, Who Will Let Her Take Stupid Pictures With Him And Show Them To Her Friends. She Wants A Guy Just To Love Her With All His Heart.

 

Love is..going to bed at night knowing that there is one person out there who's thinking of you at the same moment love is to have the last call of the day..the *one last person you want to talk to while lying in bed just before the day is over..love is a smile, it’s the only thing you want to do when your in love but if there's not a smile on your face..you can feel it in your heart love is forgiving, you may fight & go through rough times but love gives the power to *forgive* & work things out love is understanding & accepting, love involves confusion excitement. love is the one thing you can never live without

 

& then theres love. I want you to love to the tips of your fingers & when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose, don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase it either. You just be patient & it will come to you, I promise & when you least expect it, like you, like spending the best year of my life with the sweetest & smartest & the most beautiful baby in the world. You don't be afraid sweetheart & remeber to love is to live
* Dawson's Creek *

 

being (in love): (v) to be taken over by thoughts of someone. to have your schoolwork affected because of them. to doodle their initials all over everything. to think of them every second. they are your reason for taking that next breath.  they seem to be your everything. they are the only person you ever want to talk to. and you'd do anything to be with them right this second. you dont feel like you talk about him half as much as you do because he is all that you think about. the smallest things remind you of him. you take mental notes on EVERYTHING about him. you'd rather sit on the phone in silence with him than talk for hours with someone else. he is the most beautiful person alive. he has flaws and you know it...but thats okay.  he draws you in farther and farther each second that you're alive.  and you have this hunger, this deep-pit-of-your-stomach craving. and nothing can cure it. nothing except him.

 

sure - i think other guys are cute, but everytime i see a cute guy - i remind my self of how cute you are, of how much i love you --- of how sweet you are, of how you can always brighten my day, & suddenly that other guy doesn`t look so good anymore

I've come to the conclusion that there is no one out there like you... No one as crazy. No one as hard. But at the same time, there is no one who is loving and caring and would do anything for his girl. I've also come to the conclusion that there is no other girl that is crazier than me. Who is stubborn and won't let anyone get in her way. But at the same time, she's a good listener and cares about him and his past and most importantly, cares where he's gonna go. There's no one else like her... Shes obviously perfect for him.

 

 

i love being with you.. i don’t have to work hard
to impress anyone; you know all my faults.. i can cry in
front of you & you'll just hold me until i stop or i can
laugh so hard i cry & you'll laugh with me until we're
both crying & it's perfect how sometimes we don’t have
to say anything, just being together is enough.. even
though we know everything about each other we still
never run out of things to talk about. you're always there
for me whether to hold me or laugh with me you've been
with me through everything & i can’t imagine ever not
having you in my life. i love having you in my life.
forever is what i’ve always imagined myself sharing with you <3

 

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling & getting hurt. Instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. That is why we just have to be a little patient & the right boy, the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple, will come someday

 

] I Want A Guy Who Finds Me Completely
Irresistible
Someone Who Always Makes Me Smile A Guy That Understands When I Need A Night With The Girls  We’ll Try To Have Serious Conversations... But End Up Making Fun Of Each Other Instead I Want A Guy That’ll Stay Up Late Playing Video Games With Me He’ll Know All My Likes And Dislikes And We’ll Have Stupid Arguments Just So We Can Make Up And Find Me Attractive Even In My Sweats & Hoodie I Want Someone That Will Stay In On A Friday Night To Watch Movies With Me When I’m Sick

And He’ll Hold Me Tight Just To Feel Close We’ll Have Staring Contests That I Never Win He’ll Call Me Late At Night just to hear the sound of my voice And Won’t Get  Mad Because I’m So Easily Distracted When
A Serious Topic Is Brought Up
I Want A Guy That Is REAL About His Feelings  I Want A Guy That Will Never Let Me Go We’ll Find Time For Each Other Despite Our Hectic Schedules I Want A Guy To Get To Know My Family & Friends But Gives Me Just Enough Space We’ll Wrestle Each Other And He’ll Tickle Me Until I’m Laughing So Hard I Can Barely Breathe I Want A Guy That Makes Sure I Get Home Safely Someone Who Lets Me Drive Their Car Cuz I’m Bored That Will Smile For All The Bazillion Pictures I Take I Want A Guy That Will Go Camping Even When It’s A Little Muddy & maybe rainy too

Someone That Will Warm Me Up When I’m Shivering  And He’ll Hold My Hand When I’m

in a bad mood & try  to make me happy again

 

 

*::10 ways 2 Get to a Girls Heart::*
1. give her hugs from behind
2. take her hand when u guys walk next 2 each other
3. when standing, wrap your arms around her
4. cuddle with her
5. don't force her 2 do anything she doesn’t want to do
6. write little cute notes and give them to her your next period class
7. complement her on everything she does
8. when you hug hold her in your arms as long as possible
9. say i love you and mean it, right out of the blue
10. pick her over your friends... no matter what

 

I know a boy who takes up my world, takes all of me..every breath that i hold. We meet & he makes me feel free, with just one look he knows what i need. & i've found that when i'm on the ground, he is the only one sticking around..only he knows the real me & i know that he won't let me down. I know a boy who wakes up my world, brings in the warmth when i'm feelin cold..& he's got places to be but he said he would rather stay here with me. & i've found that when i'm on the ground, he's the only one sticking around..only he knows the real me & i know that he won't let me down...

 

don't know the exact moment when it hit me.. maybe thats because it's always hitting me.... i was sitting downstairs, and i couldn't stop thinking about you..and as i kept thinking about you, my stomach actually flip-flopped. and then i thought about what my life would be like without you... remembered what my life was like when i thought i'd lost you forever... and i felt sick to my stomach. bottom line? i'm crazy about you...

 

I've been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and I still want you as much as I did the first time I layed eyes on you. Every time I see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. It's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing I don't know. I don't know how to fall out of love with you. I don't know how to let go and as I stand here looking at you, I wonder if there will ever be a day when I will get over your smile, when I will let go of the hugs you gave me that I continue to feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much I love you. But, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, I know I could never get over, let go, or forget you. When you care about someone as much as I /do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. I thought I'd handle it just fine and that I'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. But it isn't always that easy. Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. I knew that I'd miss you I just didn't know I'd miss you as much as I do. I want to share my tears with you. I want to share my love with you. I want to share my happiness with you. I want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. I want to share my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe just maybe forever, and that's what happened with me and you

  

What is cute ?

Cute is young and inexperienced ; it`s holding hands in the car

& kissing at the red lights .

What is passion ?

Passion is knowing what you want & stopping at nothing

until you get it ; putting your heart in what you do .

What is beautiful ?

Beautiful is all about the inside of a person.

beauty can o n l y be found in the || heart ||

What is love ?

Love is the amazing balance in all these things

in your heart ; mind ; body ; & soul

 

someone out there is meant to be the love of your life. your best friend. your soulmate.
the one you can tell your dreams to.  he'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. he'll brush the hair out of your eyes & send you flowers when you least expect it. he'll call you to tell you goodnight before you get into bed or just because he's thinking about you. he'll be bursting to talk to you each morning, just to hear the sound of your voice. he'll look into your eyes & tell you your the most beautiful girl he's ever seen & for the first time in your life, you'll believe it.
++
dawson's creek

sAD qUoTEs

(more later also..)

 

If you could just be here when I cry,
maybe you'd realize how much I'm hurting for you.
If you could look into my eyes& see the tears fall 
& see that you are the reason behind them,
then maybe you'd understand.
If you could be the one to comfort me when I cry,
you'd realize that you're the only one who can stop my tears.

 

Can`t you see it? She loves you
more then you could ever imagine.
It`s in her eyes, it`s in her voice, it`s
in her smile. She`s so different when
you`re around, so much happier. You`re
the one for her, but you don`t see that
do you?

 

Why do I still care when you only pretend to care? Why do I take up for you when the things people say about you are true? Why do I still miss you when I know you don't miss me? Why do I still say I'm always here for you when you're no longer here for me? Why do I still struggle to hold on when you've already let go? Maybe it's the thought of you coming back. Or maybe I'm just scared that I'll never find someone else like you. But the truth is, I could find someone better then you, I just don't want to admit it. I don't want anyone but you. I just want you to know, you've changed my life..forever.

 

here's to the kids. this is for you. the kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of whiskey & conor playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained highschool party. here's to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. here's to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. here's to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool. here's to the kids who listened to fallout boy and hawthorne heights before they were on MTV...and blame MTV for ruining their life. here's to the kids who care more about the music then the haircuts. here's to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. here's to the kids who hum "last chance to lose your keys" when they're stuck home, dateless, on a saturday night. here's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart.. from someone who didnt even know they existed. here's to the kids who have read the perks of being wall flower & didn't feel so alone after doing so. here's to the kids who spend their days in photobooths with their best friend(s). here's to the kids who are straight up smartasses & just don't care. here's to the kids who speak their mind. here's to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. here's to the kids who second-guess themselves on everything they do. here's to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that. here's to the kids.. this is for you..

 

I'm not a perfect girl.
Sometimes my hair doesn't stay straight,
My nails break,
I've gotten into some fights,
&& I fall way to easily.
Then I look at her,
Everyone loves her,
She's beautiful,
She always has her head held up high..
Ready to face the world.
No wonder you picked her

 

there's something i need to tell you.
i love you, you know that i do, but..
i am just scared of so many things.
i am scared of feeling this way, &
i am scared of being so vulnerable.
but most of all, i am really scared of
[ l . o . s . i . n . g * y . o . u . ]

 

Love is like a rose... with overwhelming beauty, but
 when u go to grab it it always has thorns.
each thorn draws blood...
but the cut will heal
and for every there is a velvet peddle
making the pain worth the reward

A heart is a fragile thing

A heart is a fragile thing.
That's why we protect them so vigorously,
give them away so rarely, and why it
means so much when we do.
Some hearts are more fragile than others.
Purer, somehow. Like crystal in a world of glass,
even the way they shatter is beautiful.

 

D E A R  T E D D Y,
Teddy
, I've been bad again, My Mommy told me so;
I'm not quite sure what I did wrong, But I thought that you might know.
When I woke up this morning, I knew that she was mad;
Cause she was crying awful hard, And yelling at my dad.
I tried my best to be real good, And do just what she said;
I cleaned my room all by myself, I even made my bed.
But I spilled milk on my good shirt, When she yelled at me to hurry;
And I guess she didn't hear me, When I told her I was sorry.
'Cause she hit me awful hard, you see, And called me funny names;
And told me I was really bad, And I should be ashamed!
When I said, "I love you, Mommy,"I guess she didn't understand;
Cause she yelled at me to shut my mouth. Or I'd get smacked again.
So I came up here to talk to you, Please tell me what to do;
'Cause I really love my Mommy, And I know she loves me, too.
And I don't think my Mommy means, To hit me quite so hard;
I guess sometimes, grown ups forget How really big they are!
So Teddy, I wish you were real, And you weren't just a bear;
Then you could help me find a way To tell Mommies everywhere.
To please try hard to understand. How sad it makes us feel;
'Cause the outside pain soon goes a way, But the inside never heals!
And if we could make them listen, Maybe then they'd understand;
So other children just like me, Wouldn't have to hurt again.
But for now, I guess I'll hold you tight, And pretend the pain's not there;
I know you'd never hurt me, So Goodnight, Teddy Bear!

 

It's funny how hello, is always accompanied, with goodbye.
It's funny how, good memories, can start to make you cry.
It's funny how, Forever, never seems to last.
It's funny how, much you'd lose if you, forgot about you past.
It's funny how, friends can just leave you, when you're down.
It's funny how, when you need someone, they're never around.
It's funny how, people change and think, they're so much better.
It's funny how, how many lies can be packed, into one "love letter".
It funny how, people forgive even though, They can't forget.
It's funny how, one night can contain, so much regret

 

it seems like a million years ago we
dated, but it wasn't. maybe you`re over
it. maybe it doesn`t mean anything to
you anymore. maybe it never did, but it
meant alot to me. you meant alot to me.
&& you still do.
-- the o.c

 

... E v E n T u a L L y ...
you realize that life sucks
love isn't always real ..
& happiness is only for a limited time
you learn who REAL friends are ..
you learn to hold back tears
& you learn how to ..
act like you don't care

 

do you know what it's like to be me?
go through something not everyone can see?
do you know what it's like to walk in my shoes?
please stop judging me simply `cus i'm not you..

 

the worst thing in life is to lose a friend.
a friend that means the world to you - a
friend that you put all your trust and faith
in - a friend that you believed in from the
start - a friend that took the center of your
heart - a friend that you'd die for - a friend
that you wanted to cherish for a lifetime'-
a friend, a good friend, a best friend..

 

 I'm a hopeless romantic. I believe in
wishing on stars ;; soul mates &&
love that never ends. But yet, sometimes
I feel like the only single person alive.
I feel so alone.

 

I will never forget the way you looked
sitting next to me, and how you smiled when
we rolled around on the ground. But as soon
as we were alone, and it was time to
learn your taste && kiss your lips
&& grab your waist && feel your hips
Late nights have never been the same

 

we kept going back to each other as if it would work out better
the next time around I think we got so used to that..knowing that
no matter what happened we would always be there for each
other
.. if we broke up there would be nothing that would stop
us
from being back together but this time..there was..</3

 

scared of being alone, and you don't know what you want. I think your crazy, foolish and messed up. Your sucha liar and a minipulator. you wanna call me a bitch.. fine, but at least this bitch knows what she wants and goes for it even if it means making herself look like an ass just to face her fears. Cuz if ur not willing to look stupid, face ur fears and make an ass outta urself, even in front of ur friends, you don't deserve to love at all.  I hope u choke on all ur lies and drown in ur bullshit.

 

 

please just do me a favor. Promise me.

please promise that you will never forget me.

that I changed you somehow.

let me know that I had somewhat of an impact on you life.

please promise that you will always remember me.

losing our friendship was hard enough,

but I don't want to go on knowing that I meant nothing to you.

that I was just one of those friends who passes you by.

promise me that you will always remember me

 

remember. remember when we were best friends. when we would go to each others houses every night? remember when we knew exactly what the other person was thinking? remember when we would take those long walks? the ones where we really wouldn't have a destination, but it was still fun. cus it was just the two of us. remember all the times we had sleepovers..or girls nights in? all the sad movies we watched together, crying. & all the scary movies we watches, screaming at all the same parts. remember laughing so hard that our stomachs hurt? & getting up early just to see the gates open at the mall. remember all our inside jokes, all our memories & all our secret messages? do you remember getting ready together just listening to music. or just dancing around to the music? remember the long days & our crazy talks? or our long talks & crazy days? do you remember all those times we went to the mall together, or to the movies? remember all our fights we had, but we always ended up okay. cus we were best friends. remember that I will always be there for you. & that you were the best friend I have ever had do you remember that? that we were best friends? cus it doesn't seem like you do..

 

I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something that nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see people in your life break one by one

 

remember every single word you said.. Okay? I'm not naive and I'm not that stupid. I've been broken before. I can deal. I'm not scared of moving on with my life. What I'm scared of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road you were my life

 

I never knew why it was called "falling in love",
but i do now. You become in love
with someone and everything
is so great. It cant get any better.
You feel like nothing can mess
up because its so perfect.
Once it cant get any better, you suddenly
realize you no longer are climbing a mountain,
you walk off the edge, begin to "fall"
and realize nothing is perfect. Y
ou begin to fall straight down to reality.
You stop getting their calls,
they dont talk to you in the halls,
you stop having notes passed to you in class,
they dont brag about you to their friends,
the compliments stop,
they lose that sparkle in their eye,
and all the sweet surprises are gone.
As you fall you watch all the memories,
good times, bad times, smiles, laughs, cries just
pass you by. its gone, all gone.
Youre back at the bottom of the mountain
and this time your all alone.
Somehow your trying to find the strength
to climb that mountain knowing you could fall.
You will have to find a new "guide" and hope
they will help you know the best paths to take.
They will help you overcome obstacles.
They will be the one that shelters you
when the rain starts falling.
Once they help you reach the top,
you pray they wont leave you. Not many "guides"
will stay on the mountain forever, so be careful.
Alone on a mountain you will fall and keep falling.
If someone is there with you as you stumble,
they will catch you before you fall.
So before you "fall in love", understand
that falling can be very painful.
The person you hope will catch you
could be the one that pushed you down...

 

maybe the reason why I haven`t found who i`ve been searching for is because I know that i`ve already found him. it`s just up to him to say whether I am who he has been waiting for.

 

i can`t believe youu had the nerve to say the

things youu said. they hurt so bad that they ended

our relationship. i can`t believe it, 4 years

gone down the drain. oh how i wish things

would of happened so differently i tried to

save it so many times but  youu still couldn`t

see. youu kept insisting and resistin that youu

would not fall again and now u tryin to tell me

that youu`re sorry & you`re tryiing to come back

home. you`re telling me youu really need me cryin

beggin both knees are on the floor. but baby i

don`t wanna try no more. u kept insisting when

youu know our love is out the door. don`t wanna try

cus all we do is fight and say the things i hurt you

bad when we both begin to cry. don`t wanna try

it`s been a long road baby, please just let it go.

 

am i mad at you?
that`s your main concern after shattering my whole world? mad for what? for breaking my heart? all the lies? maybe for letting me put all my trust in you.. only to betray the decency to tell me to my face? how about the fact that you didn`t even care. the way you think it`s crazy that i`m crying over it.. cause you think breaking up is no big deal? am i mad? no. more like crushed. did i ever even really know you?

 

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say.. I'm afraid you don't want me to say anything, so I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell you how i feel.. Like how much i miss you and how much i love you, depite my broken heart.. And how i still need you in my life and especially how much i want you. . But those words will forever stay locked in my heart.. Sometimes i wonder if there are words locked inside you too.. But i'll never know.

 

maybe i made a huge mistake by going out with you .. & maybe i was wrong to fall for you. but whatever i did wrong, the biggest mistake i made was believing everything you said-- by  t r u s t i n g  you, i ended up giving you a piece of me. i wore my heart on my sleeve. daring you to take advantage of my love .. [[ and you did

 

there's this girl... that thinks your absolutely
nothing less than perfect, despite your flaws
there's this girl... that dreams about holding you
and loving you with all her might forever
there's this girl... that would give her own life
for you because you make hers worth living
there's this girl... that thinks you're her entire world
but you don't see that because you're too busy
with the girl that couldn't care less

 

we all used to try so hard to fit in. we wanted to look exactly alike, do all the same things, practically be the same person, but when we weren't looking that all changed. the tree house was supposed to bring us more independence, but what the summer actually brought was independence from each other.
++ now and then

 

Sometimes I feel like no one cares. Sometimes I feel like no one is there. Sometimes I want to kill myself. Sometimes I think I need some help. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone. Sometimes I'm in an empty zone. Sometimes I feel like I'm not alive. Sometimes I wonder if I'm deprived. Sometimes I think the world should end. Sometimes I think I have no friends. Sometimes I want to make them see. Sometimes I wish I wasn't me.

 

ran straight upstairs & cried & prayed for it to stop hurting but i cant stop longing for your touch. Even when you're taken, i love you so much & now that i know you're gone, i'm no longer strong. I gotta let go of you now, gotta find someone new somehow. Please don't call. I can't take hearing your voice. Please don't come by ;; seeing your face is even worse. But please don't forget that i loved you, that i'll never forget your smile. Please don't forget our moments that lasted for awhile. You being taken is my ticket to freedom, but somehow i feel locked down. Just let me be, please. Let me leave or memories as of now

 

You go out with someone .. because you
like them .. Then as you get to know them
more you start to love them & get to know
more about them & get to see their sweet
side. Well .. in a relationship - theres always
gonna be ONE person who tries to break you
up. Because they're jealous or because they're
mad at the world. Everyone says, "omg they're
soo sweet together
." & Those homewreckers
say to themselves - "They're not gonna be soo
sweet together afterall
."
- Gotta love home wreckers.

 

This time I really thought that it was different. I really thought that you cared.
Who was I to think that you were serious with the words you said.
How stupid can I be? I really don't understand why I cant just let you go.
When I already know that you and me will never be. I should just let you go but whenever
I think I am over you, you come around. Then all the feelings that I thought were done
just come rushing back. And I am back to where I started thinking
about you all the time and you want to know the worst part
about it I even dream about you. Why cant I get you out of my mind.
I wish I could just hate you but I cant because I absolutely adore you.

 

I lay in bed at night, all I can think about is you. Touching you, holding you, kissing you. Tears roll down my cheeks as I remember what we had. You were my first love, first kiss, first anything. What we had was something special. Nothing will ever change that. Now that you're gone, all I can do is lay in bed at night with tears rolling down my cheeks & remember

 

Dear You,
I'm Sorry That I Wasn't Good Enough For You, Even Though This Is The Best I Can Be. I'm Sorry I Have Problems. I'm Not Perfect, But Please Don't Hate Me. I'm Sorry I Gave You My Love, I Guess You Didn't Want It. I'm Sorry You Tore Out My Heart & Ripped It To Pieces. Did It Hurt You Too? I'm Sorry I Can't Give You Perfection, Because I'm Far From It. I'm Sorry You Broke My Heart, The Sharp Pieces Must Have Cut You Somehow. I'm Sorry I Cared About You So Much When You Forgot All About Me. I Guess You Were Too Busy Caring About Someone Else. I'm Sorry For Putting You Through Everything & It Came Out To Nothing. I'm Sorry For Crying My Eyes Out When You Were Too Busy Hating Me, I'm Sorry. I'm Sorry That You Had To Meet Me & Suffer Through My Unwanted Love. I'm Really Very Sorry.

 

Sorry that I ever loved you. Sorry
that I cared. Sorry that we've taken for
granted the love we shared. Sorry for the
waiting. Sorry to waste your time. Sorry if
I'm not worth it, You don't have to be mine.
Sorry for mistaking something I thought was
true. Sorry if you don't understand why I do
what I do. Sorry for my feelings as if they're
not enough. Sorry if we can't work through
all this stuff. Sorry if I'm cramping your lifestyle
or getting in your way. Sorry if I don't say the
things you want me to say. Sorry if I don't
measure up to what you want me to be. Sorry
I can't be enough to make you just want me.
Sorry for apologizing I don't know what else to
do. Sorry if my dreams only consist of me &&
you
. Sorry I ever met you. Sorry I'm not enough
for you. Sorry if I love you the way I do. <3

 

Do you ever miss me? Do you ever miss the way we used to be? When we used to talk and laugh and flirt? When you used to purposely bump into me in the hall, just so you could see me look at you and smile? Do you miss our conversations? ...And what about our dumb sarcasm that only you and I understand? Do you ever miss any of that? I think maybe you do because sometimes when I look at you, you'll randomly look at me and stop what you're doing, just so you can look into my eyes, like you used to. ...And even though it only last for two seconds, do you miss that? I can't be the only one that does. If I could show you how much I was hurting, you'd never be able to look me in the eyes again.

 

you..would never ask me why, my heart is so disguised..i just cant live a lie anymore;; i would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry. there's nothing left to say..but goodbye..you deserve the chance of the kind of love i'm not sure i'm worthy of..cause losing you is painful to me && i dont want to let you down..i dont want to lead you on. i dont want to hold you back, from where you might belong..

 

I don't know why I hurt myself like this. it's like I’m purposely lying down so you could walk all over me. it's like I’m purposely putting you into my thoughts just so it will hurt more when I realize that you aren't thinking of me at all. it's like I’m intentionally putting my heart on the line hoping that you will take it, but knowing that you won't. it's like I'm purposely pushing myself off the edge just so you will notice & save me like I want you to..but knowing..that you won't & I will fall. I will crash & fall..& it's all my fault. I can't expect you to do anything for me. I don't know what to say? what can I say? I don't want to be alone anymore. I just want you.

 

so i took a walk down memory lane today..
i just kept clicking back & back..
looking through old entries
sometimes i would stop & read
smile to myself & remember
then that smile would fade away
sometimes i would quickly scroll by
cus i couldnt stand to read the words
like one where where we sent each other kisses
but God i loved him so much
i didnt know till now & i hate him
i hate him cus...i cant hate him
i wish i could just start this past summer all over
& just re-live it over & over again..
I know you care, but it's just not fair..
When your not around I want you there..
& I need you to stop breaking my heart

 

It's amazing how you realize; when you lose someone, you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times. you take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could've been with them.
anyone can be taken at any time in our lives but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before

 

if i had known
the last time you made a joke
would have been the last
i would have laughed forever
if i had known
the last time you made me smile
would have been the last
i would have smiled forever
if i had known
the last time you wiped away my tears  would have been the last  i would have cried forever
if i had known
that the last time you held me so tight
would be the last
i would have held on forever
if i had only known
that the last time we said goodbye  would have been the last
i wouldn't have let you go

 

I walk around the school hallways and look at people. I look at teachers and wonder why they’re here. If they like their jobs. Or us. And I wonder how smart they were when they were fifteen. Not in a mean way. In a curious way. It’s like looking at all the students and wondering who’s had their heart broken that day, and how they are able to cope with having three quizzes and a book report due on top of that. Or wondering who did the heart breaking. And wondering why.”

-“The Perks of Being a Wallflower” By Stephen Chbosky

 

 i dont understand, you werent that big of a deal to me, i didn't really care
of what you did or said, but now, when you hurt me soo much, i don’t
understand
the feeling i have i actually feel the pain, & CARE
this time, & i never thought this would come, this was a great
surprise
, but as i look at the times we had, i feel my heart bleeding
more & more & i reallize i was SO in love with you, i didn't even know it

I love you. I love you not because you're adorable or because you're sweet, or because you're my best friend. I love you because you make me step outside myself and
look at who I really am. You make me want to be a better person, just because you are who you are. I can tell you absolutely everything and I know you will listen. And you're one of my best friends. But I will keep all of this to myself because I love you, but you do not love me...I wish that I could make you love me but I cannot. That is why these words will be forever lost in my memories never to be spoken aloud: I love you.

 

You forgive me for liking you too much I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.
You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart
I'll forgive you for not hearing it.
You forgive me for finding you so attractive I'll forgive you for not noticing. You forgive me for wanting to be with you I'll forgive you for avoiding me. You forgive me for being so pathetic I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it. You forgive me for not being able to let go & I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

 

i used to wait hours & hours just to see if you would sign on. i'd wait everyday just to see you in the hallways during passing periods. i'd cherish every moment i would have talking to you. the glances during school were the only cure to my loneliness. the mention of your name would bring a smile to my face. now it's different. you have a girlfriend who loves you. just like it was meant to be. everyone knows you go out & have a great time. i always see you two in deep conversations, holding hands. you walk her to every class, like time doesn't matter when you're with her. you would sign on just to see if she was on too. she would return from being away, & you both would chat for hours. don't try to hide it from me- i know. but that was the past. now nothing matters. & me? i still see you in the hallways. but i don't wait around for you anymore. i see you having a great time with other people. like i don't exist- not that i care anyways. we still chat every now & then. but there's never anything "there." i'd hear news about the two of you. but it doesn't really bother me anymore. there are times when i wish i wasn't so alone- but i deal. & i guess you could say i'm still heartbroken. i'm way over you, but still heartbroken. because i actually thought i had a chance. but was too in love to see that i was never.. the one for you. <|3

 

he calls and calls, but she refuses to answer her phone. tears pour from her eyes as she sits by it listening to it ring over and over again. but what this
eager boy on the other end does not realize is that he's breaking her heart, because the truth is she wants to pick up the phone and hear his apologies so bad, but she holds back, and what she doesn't realize is that she's breaking this guys heart because the truth is he can't live with out her, but she'll never know, because it will all end after this. he'll never try to talk to her again and it will break her stubborn heart and she'll wish she had picked up that phone & got back what she was so sure she never wanted again.

 

& its hard to look at you, cus when you look at me I can only imagine that your picturing some girl who just can't let go. But not so long ago, a boy walked into the room. & at the first glance I took, I knew that somehow this boy would change my life forever. & I didn't know how, & I didn't know why, but all I knew was that something was bound to happen. & then, something did. & I knew, & he knew, at that very moment, that things would never be the same. Cus we had both brought out a side to each other that no one has ever seen before. & here I am, almost a year later, & I'm still remembering the day when that boy first walked through the door, & oh, how he's changed me.

i guess the weirdest part is when you hear a song on the radio or something & it reminds you of them. & then the next song after that. & then even the next song after that. & no one else understands what i means to you except yourself, & you want to tell them but you can't cus you've already said your goodbyes..& you can't go back on them now. & it takes all the courage you have not to call them up & just play the song & hang up. & just to hear their voice one last time

 

Sometimes I think that the only person that loves me and cares about me is myself…sometimes I feel like guys only want to play mind games with me and after I actually like them, they ignore me and never cared about me in the first place…maybe the only person I can trust is myself…maybe that is why I feel like no one will actually see the real me and inside my heart or what the shape of it is because there isn't someone out there for me…and that's why I am so insecure about falling in love

 

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something & wishing
you hadn't? Or saying nothing& wishing you had? I guess the
most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they
might break your heart.. if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so
afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own when you
least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever
wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other
person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up
because we are too afraid to care too much.. for fear that the other person
does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings
for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid.. afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
 Life is all about risks & it requires you to jump. Don't be a person
who has to look back & wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow & you never
got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you
couldn't have them? What would you do if you never got the chance to
say 'I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them'?
People live, but people die.

  

im not always as confident as i seem. there are many nights and& many days when all i want is to be held. i love being held .. always. sometimes i dont want to talk about what is bothering me .. sometimes i just want a hug. someone who will let me cry. i like when boys cry in front of me. when people arent afraid to show what theyre really feeling. i dont like when people run from their true feelings because it doesnt do anyone any good. i wear my heart on my sleeve, but i am not naive. i know what it feels like to be completly broken and& i am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. i know what its like to hear something funny and& not laugh. ive been taken advantage of, used and& abused. my feelings have been blatantly disregarded. but i still believe that all people are good at heart, and& my trust in people has not diminished. to be completely honest, i hope it never does.

 

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile, & you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to  be alone. people have stopped being comforting..& being alone never was. at least when your alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong & there isn't anyone who wont take 'I don't no' for an answer. You feel the way you do just BECAUSE. You hope the feeling will pass soon & that you will be able to be yourself again,
but until then all you can do is wait..

 

And every memory just leaves a bigger hole in your heart.  Even your clothes remind you of him... what you wore when you hung out.  You can still smell him all over them, even though his scent hasn't ben there for long.  You wish his scent would be stuck on you, but you know you'd be pulling at your skin trying to get him off you.  You're online, he signs on, and you want to yell at him to go away, but you just watch the screen waiting for him to say anything, but then he signs off, and you tear yourself apart for not saying anything to him.  You stop talking to your friends, and they get worried and try comforting you, but they just make you feel worse because they think they know, but they don't... they don't have a damn clue. <|3

 

No matter how hard you try to get over someone, you will still have some sort of feelings for them, remembering the way things used to be, & how they are now, & sometimes you hope that the new person in their life was still you, & everything was how it used to be, erasing all the bad things that happened. Time is supposed to make things better, but in love, it doesn't. Although we have been apart for a while, & now have different loves in our lives, I can't help but wonder how your life is, & when i catch you glancing at me, I can't help but wonder if your heart beats a little faster, as mine does when i look at you..

 

Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

 

Sometimes I think that the only person that loves me and cares about me is myself…sometimes I feel like guys only want to play mind games with me and after I actually like them, they ignore me and never cared about me in the first place…maybe the only person I can trust is myself…maybe that is why I feel like no one will actually see the real me and inside my heart or what the shape of it is because there isn't someone out there for me…and that's why I am so insecure about falling in love

 

Im tired of being pushed around and just taking it without a fight. Im tired of being judged by how I look. Im tired of being insulted and just taking it. Im tired of keeping my feelings to myself and end up regretting it all later. Im tired of being ditched just for someone else. Im tired of feeling helpless in friendships that are falling a  p  a  r  t. Im tired of being blamed for things that aren’t my fault. im tired of having my heart b/r/o/k/e/n continuously. Im tired of always being left behind or the third wheel. Im tired of being embarrassed about my body. Im tired of all the tears I’ve cried. Im tired of all the times when I’ve been used. Im tired of always smiling when there is something that’s truly bothering me. Im tired of keeping up a happy expression so people wont suspect whats wrong with me. Im tired of never truly learning that lesson, because I always end up doing it again. Im tired of how some people don’t truly care for that person they love, just because of appearance. Im tired of all the pain I’ve gone through. Im tired of being expected to excel at everything im asked to do. Im tired of always being compared to others. im tired of everything I’ve gone through…
I'm tired of the pain, tears, and broken hearts.

 

Dear You,
I'm Sorry That I Wasn't Good Enough For You, Even Though This Is The Best I Can Be. I'm Sorry I Have Problems. I'm Not Perfect, But Please Don't Hate Me. I'm Sorry I Gave You My Love, I Guess You Didn't Want It. I'm Sorry You Tore Out My Heart & Ripped It To Pieces. Did It Hurt You Too? I'm Sorry I Can't Give You Perfection, Because I'm Far From It. I'm Sorry You Broke My Heart, The Sharp Pieces Must Have Cut You Somehow. I'm Sorry I Cared About You So Much When You Forgot All About Me. I Guess You Were Too Busy Caring About Someone Else. I'm Sorry For Putting You Through Everything & It Came Out To Nothing. I'm Sorry For Crying My Eyes Out When You Were Too Busy Hating Me, I'm Sorry. I'm Sorry That You Had To Meet Me & Suffer Through My Unwanted Love. I'm Really Very Sorry.

 

I doubted you in the beginning you know, I thought you were just like all the others, every compliment, every I love you, every kiss, I thought it was a lie, so I prepared myself for the fall & wouldn't get attached, but then I realized that you weren't setting me up, there were no catches, no lies, no false promises, you really meant every word you said, & now I can't help but cry everytime you say I love you, cus I feel so awful for everytime you said it & I let it pass me by

 

It’s been a long time since the first times.
The first time we met…to the first time we kissed...to our first fight…our first good-bye…our first tears...to the last "I love you." People say you never realize what you have until you lose it. In a way...they're right. But I never took you for granted because  I knew any day I could wake up& you would be gone. I just hoped so much it wouldn't be for a very long time. But now I miss all those things I never really noticed. Like how much I miss your hands holding mine & most of all…I miss your  smile. No matter what was going wrong, all you had to do was give me that smile of yours & somehow I knew everything was going to be all right. I haven't seen that smile forever. I just keep hoping I'll see it again so I can have that feeling that everything is going to  be all right again. I'm not all right. I'm anything but okay right now. I just keep wondering if I'm ever on your mind. Or if you ever miss my smile too. I wonder if you ever wake up in the middle of the night praying that I'll come back. I miss you so much. There's nothing I can say that would ever make you understand  just what you mean to me. I want more than anything to see your smile again  knowing it's for me. I need something to hang on to. I need you...

 

A boy sits in his room. With unseen tears running down his face. Not about to end any time soon. He sits on his bed, and reaches under his pillow. He pulls out that hidden notebook with the pages filled. Page by page he rips them out, the memories of her, good and bad. The only person he ever loved was this girl. He kept tearing at the pages, trying to let the feelings go, trying to forget the girl who just s h a t t e r e d his heart into pieces.       Not too far away from that boy's home. Sits a girl, all alone. With music blaring and tears not heard. Her head is down, actions speak louder than words. Her hair falls down, all over her face, so messed up so misplaced. Unheard tears streaming down her face, as if they will never end. She understands that things will never be the same. She takes out her notebook and a pen. Starting to write of anythign that comes to mind. She tries not to think about the boy...because the only pain worse then having your heart broken...is breaking your own.

 

 Youu have so much power over me, youu'd be surprised if youu only knew … I wonder what youu'd say if youu knew that I woke up every morning with youu on my mind, showering thinking of you, getting dressed thinking of youu, listening to my music thinking of youu, putting on my make up for youu, fixing my hair for youu, wearing skirts for youu, lying out in the sun to be tan for youu, sitting in school thinking of youu, walking in the hallways looking for youu during and in between class, talking on the phone about youu, lying in bed at night thinking of youu, and falling asleep thinking of youu. If only youu knew how youu send my heart spinning every time youu look into my eyes and stare until we pass. If only youu knew how everything around me darkens, the voices all around me fade, all I hear is my heart pounding, and all I see are your beautiful eyes staring into mine. If only youu knew how much youu meant to me. I just wonder what youu'd say..

 

Dear those few who would even notice,
          I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Hurting me only meant hurting those who I love. Although I know for some of you it would have been easier without me. I also know that I would be missed by a few. I know what it feels like to miss someone that you can’t have. To lie and bed and know that you’ll never be able to bring those who left back. To cry yourself to sleep because you don’t know what else to do. I don’t want to be the cause of that feeling; the same feeling that haunts me in the middle of the night. Becoming the burden on all of you isn’t how I want to be. I’m sorry for the way I am. I never meant to be this way. I never meant to hurt you all. I really wish I wasn’t this way. Trust me I want to be a better person. I want to be happy. So for the time being I’ll just wait. So don’t worry about me because for now I’ll still be right here.

Sincerely,
Still here

 

without you.. it's just not quite the same i just wanted to say
that im sick of these fights
i'll let you be right
if it stops you from running away
so give me this chance
to make the wrongs right, to say don't...don't walk away
i promise i won't let you down
if you take my hand tonight
i promise, we'll be just fine this time
if you take my hand tonight <3

 

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep & wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt & doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, cus the truth is you can't outrun it & life always makes more.

* GREY'S ANATOMY *

 

 

Im tired of being pushed around and just taking it without a fight. Im tired of being judged by how I look. Im tired of being insulted and just taking it. Im tired of keeping my feelings to myself and end up regretting it all later. Im tired of being ditched just for someone else. Im tired of feeling helpless in friendships that are falling a  p  a  r  t. Im tired of being blamed for things that aren’t my fault. im tired of having my heart b/r/o/k/e/n continuously. Im tired of always being left behind or the third wheel. Im tired of being embarrassed about my body. Im tired of all the tears I’ve cried. Im tired of all the times when I’ve been used. Im tired of always smiling when there is something that’s truly bothering me. Im tired of keeping up a happy expression so people wont suspect whats wrong with me. Im tired of never truly learning that lesson, because I always end up doing it again. Im tired of how some people don’t truly care for that person they love, just because of appearance. Im tired of all the pain I’ve gone through. Im tired of being expected to excel at everything im asked to do. Im tired of always being compared to others. im tired of everything I’ve gone through…
I'm tired of the pain, tears, and broken hearts.

 

and the truth is that one day you're gonna see
how much you miss me. you're gonna realize
how much you want me. you're gonna cry
because you left me. but it's gonna be too late
because all those nights i was left crying myself
to sleep were the worst nights of my entire life,
&& you were the one that [ left me, broke me,
loved me, hated me, made me, cursed me ] &
i'm the one that is leaving you when you
want
to
take me back <|3

 

I doubted you in the beginning you know, I thought you were just like all the others, every compliment, every I love you, every kiss, I thought it was a lie, so I prepared myself for the fall & wouldn't get attached, but then I realized that you weren't setting me up, there were no catches, no lies, no false promises, you really meant every word you said, & now I can't help but cry everytime you say I love you, cus I feel so awful for everytime you said it & I let it pass me by

 

 good girl reputation for all your life & no one notices. one screw up & it feels like the world is watchin

 

] I just  want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know
*Backstreet Boys

 

 

To the girl who will replace me ...
There are just a couple of things that I thought I should tell you. I learned these while I was the object of your guy's affection. First of all, don't be frightened if he smothers much more love on you than you had expected. Don't be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have ever met. And let it not scare you that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly. Also, you should know that he remembers everything you will say. He's hurt easily, especially by the painful words a careless girl will say. If you do hurt him, then you'll have to pay the price of seeing the broken look in his passionate and deep brown eyes, and watch the light in them fade. But if this happens, all is not lost- a kiss and an "I love you" can heal anything. And please, don’t say I love you to him, unless you really mean it, nothing hurts him more then someone who really doesn’t care. Sometimes, he won't tell you what he is feeling, but... just know that he is protecting you and if you ever feel that something isn't right, just look into his beautiful brown eyes and you will be able to see into him. You can see everything he is feeling, everything he is thinking, everything that isn't right with him... He won't ever try to hurt you, because he just isn't that way, so please don't hurt him because if you do, I don't think I could ever forgive you. I don't think there could ever be a worse feeling in the world than knowing that you have the boy that I love and knowing that you hurt him. You should know that if you two ever get into a fight, just make sure you pick only the ones worth fighting for... He will always keep his temper and will never curse at you or call you names, despite the anger he may be feeling. Though he may act mature, most of the time, once he's given you his heart, he will begin to open up to you and his silliness will make your heart smile, in a way that words can not explain. Don't hold a tight grip on him, let him go and be part of the world and experience new things. You will find that he is a busy guy and that he is so very independent. Sometimes, he will need his space, but don't worry... He'll always make time for you and even when you're not around, you'll be in his thoughts. You will find that he isn't like any other guy that you have met, so please don't take him for granted. When it comes to his money, don't take advantage of that, He will be so unselfish with it, because that is the way he is. And even though he won't admit it, he really does like to be surprised. He is less tough than he may appear, you just have to take the time and let him bring down his guard... He is so sweet and so amazing and know that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart, the same way that my heart breaks apart, as I sit here writing this to you. Don't ever try to pull him away from his dreams. He is going to be an extremely successful person and won't ever let you give up on your dreams, either. He will encourage you to become everything you can be and will never, ever let you down. He likes it when you kiss his ear and nothing is better than hugging each other. Just watch how your hand will fit perfectly into his and when it does, it seems as if nothing in the world could hurt you, because he is there. And when he puts his arms around you and tells you that you are the girl he loves, you will know, there isn't any guy in the world better than him... Don't ever let him go. You will regret doing so, for the rest of time... I promise, you will

 

i realize the only thing  i did was let you fall in love with me,  and then not be there to catch you.  so, in trying to protect my heart,  i broke yours. i did the one thing i promised myself i would never  do to anyone, lead them on.  i know how much it hurts. i know what it's like to cry  yourself to sleep at night  wondering where you went wrong. im sorry, i really am, but i know that  won't fix a broken heart. i never meant to hurt anyone,
especially you. <|3

 

 

 

 

 

 

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