Because sometimes the eyes and ears of strangers are preferred. For those that need a little something to pass by time. Below are little snippets of what the day may bring forth: thoughts, feelings, and events.


December 29, 2012
The most comforting words: my own.
I don't pretend nor claim to be some independent woman. Sometimes though, I wish I wasn't part of this social group of species. I don't want to have to depend, yet time after time, I delude myself with the idea and face disappointment every time. It's as if it's some continuous cycle I can't get out of. Tonight must be the night of my mental breakdown. I'm actually envious of insanity.

December 30, 2012
Funny discussions of sad scenes in dramas.
Her: Did you cry in *describes a rainy scene in Boys Over Flowers*? When the guy goes "Kajima! [hideously imitating his voice]"?
Me: *bursts out laughing* I feel sorry for them. All their efforts and time into making this one scene heart-felt and sad get killed by one line of yours.

December 31, 2012
Sriracha deprived.
This is probably the umpteenth time the house has ran out of sriracha sauce. What kind of Asian household....sigh. Not a single drop of sriracha. For anyone as talented as a cook like me, they'll understand how important condiments are in our eating lifestyle. Tasting bland? Missing the umph to it? Add a squirt of ketchup or a dash of A1 sauce, and whoa la!

January 2, 2013
Today's replay:
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January 6, 2013
I hate having sensitive skin. It's tiresome going through all these epidemics of skin irritation.

January 26, 2013
Left behind.
Seems like everyone's moving away. Let it be family members, longterm friends, acquaintances--everyone's running off to chase after their dream. I feel excited for those finally achieving what they're seeking for, yet depressed that they will no longer be around at convenience.

January 28, 2013
Becoming culturally diversed.
Since the recent year, I've really taken an interest in historical dramas. At times, I even prefer them over modern dramas. Reasoning might just be because I got tired of the modern conflicts. Nevertheless, because of whatever the reason is, I'm learning more and more about Korean history. Funny. Before, the most I was willing to learn about history was what was taught in class. Now, I'm finding myself research about the events of how dynasties, kings, and customs came to be, willingly.

January 31, 2013
Couples are always complaining about their partners, how they have to struggle through so much just to be with that person, but which love isn't difficult? Where in the world can you find a love that paves a simple road? Others are unsure of what love really is. If you're able to completely reveal everything about yourselves and still be able to embrace each other, that's already love in itself. There's no such love that's 100% pure. There are always other motives involved, whether it be the fear of letting go, the crave for attention, or the need for stability. Everyone knows it, but no one says or admits to it.

February 8, 2013
Woke up around 8:30 to finish the last book of Vampire Academy. The first book was a let down but the other books made up for it. It was a fun read, I'd say it was better than reading Twilight but then again, I already ruined that series by watching the movies first. The ending of Academy was half-assedly done though. Everything was still in a haze and there were alot of IDKs. I hate loosely tied ends like that. Hopefully for my next book, the author will make a better ending. Have to run to the store in a bit to get materials for scrapbooking. It's been a while since I've done that.

February 14, 2013
Spent majority of the day at work so didn't do much in the spirit of Valentine's. I suppose I should treat my car tomorrow. Haven't given it a bath or a vaccuum in a while. I need new books to read though. I'm bored with playing League of Legends for hours.

February 15, 2013
Woke up late today. Was up till the wee hours, searching for books that I'd want to read next and after all those hours, I finally ordered four books today. I need to stop whizzing through those books though. I can't afford spending $50 on books every two weeks. I'm in the process of trying to learn how to enjoy a book by reading just a few pages a day. I hate dragging out books though. I can't control myself to stop reading when it gets to the good part and indulge myself back into the story when I'm distracted with other things. In any case, I got to wash my car. It was dirty as heck. That girl hasn't had a bath for months; I can't even remember the last time I actually gave it a decent wash. Took a long time cleaning inside and out though.

February 24, 2013
Slow, gradual processes are the hardest to go through with. Sigh. I need motivation.


February 25, 2013
Downloaded Tera Online. Goddamn, that freakn file is huge as heck! 25 GB?! Freakn, I've never seen a gaming file that estimates an entire day to download. God! Still feeling the rage from League of Legends. I think game rage is even worse than car rage. >_>

March 5, 2013
I don't swing homosexual but I find bubbly, cheerful girls to be so cute. Maybe it's because it's such a contrast to my personality that I find them much more interesting. That innocent, geniune side is rare nowadays. I'm not talking about the pitiful, clingy girl but the vulnerable, naive one.

March 6, 2013
We're beautiful for the heart that was meant to love us.
That has got to be the most difficult thing to accept.

March 11, 2013
Take two people who are content with living the single life, mesh them into a relationship, and you get pretty horrible chemistry. Reoccurring arguments, endless sessions of irritation, and continuous misunderstandings. Ask me where our relationship is and I would tell you that is where we stand.

March 13, 2013
Today is so freakn hot! Gosh, it's as if Mother Nature decided spring was un-needed this year or something. Went straight from winter to summer weather. Yeesh! I finally put away my fourth blanket away today. Can't deal with the prickliness of the feathers and the heat it gives out anymore. Other than possibly making my first sweat of the year, I pretty much did nothing. Read a bit of my book but probably only got through 20-30 pages of it. Spent the majority of my day browsing online and whatnot. I'm eating past 6 again. Sigh. Not because I was hungry but because I was tempted. I knew coming out of the bedroom was a bad idea!

March 22, 2013
Didn't do much today. Got up to shower and worked. Was pins and needles at work though. Yeesh. That inspection was nerve wrecking, glad it was over with quicker than I anticipated. Came home and gamed. Lol! I didn't feel like reading for some reason. I really do want to know what's going to happen in Insurgent but haven't been in the reading mode lately. I should go to sleep soon though. I'm freakn hungry as heck and staying up doesn't help! Sigh.

March 26, 2013
Came back from the family trip to the bay area. A bit sore from the horseback riding but other than that, I'm doing fabulous. Wanted to play Super Smash Brothers Brawl but since we have no Wii, I tried downloading the rom and using it through an emulator. Freakn file is big as heck. Not as big as Tera of course, but still, a game at 7GB is pretty big. Got the PS3 controller working but am probably going to get a USB adaptor to allow more than one controller to play against each other. I'm pretty sure my siblings will want to play. So then I'm stuck, having to wait for the game to download. In the mean time, I'm debating if I should run to the store to grab some ingredients for clam chowder. Ever since our seaside trip, the family has seem to take a liking to the soup.

April 1, 2013
I don't mind a note of a simple "Hi" or "Hello." It's a friendly gesture, though lacking creativity, it's still a friendly greeting. What irritates or in other words, "turns me off" the most is demanding a name or some kind of identification without identifying yourself first. You initiate the conversation, you give first. Don't be trying to get a bargain out of our conversations, I don't give just cause you demand it or sound persuasive. I give at my will.

April 12, 2013
Not much to report. Didn't really do much today. Was at work for most of the day. A few complaints did arise though. Boss was telling me to keep busy and not to chatter so much. Wtf?! I wasn't even talking! The heck? It's all cool with us but sometimes, just sometimes, that lady, she just has some double standards thing going on. She goes around, chatting away with others, distracting them with her conversations and she doesn't allow us to speak a word to each other. Yeesh. Some friendly working environment there. Anyways, apart from work, I just spend the rest of the day Youtubing. Was watching the NA LCS for League of Legends for a while. Haven't really ventured out much but I'll have to say, TheOddOne definitely leaves an impression. Scarra is all cool, but his little streaming sessions aren't as enjoyable. Brian really knows how to throw in offensive, funny commentaries though. Keeps the game interesting and gives you little bits of laughter. I hate the commentors on the LCS games btw....well, hate would be too strong of a word. More like very much would appreciate if they would just insert the gamers' voices into the clip instead of having some third party observe and narrate. Their voices started to irritate me so I just went onto TSM TheOddOne personal recordings of his games. As for the countdown. Only 3 days are left! I'm excited. Teehee! I need to do some last minute shopping and whatnot though. Tsk.
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